Apart from you, my heart is shattered, afraid I might lose all that I’ve long for. The heart full of turmoil and my mind – in a mess, simply bewildered. For a penny of my thought, a thousand of day dream debris. I merely wanted a sense of feeling, the emptiness to be filled with your presence; battling the thoughts, they shoot on me, with arrows as sharp as a thousand thorns piercing my body. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE… that is what I want to give to you – I must not forget, I must not despair. Your absence has made me want you more. It is not only a duty, but a desire, the passion, the dependency on you. To simply put it... I need you! It’s the suffering of Love and the need of your love as I walk along the streets of manipal. As I see lovers kissing, walking hand in hand, guy and girl, and guy and guy (no kidding! It is very common here). My heart fills with unrest; then I try to make a mental picture… see you in the empty space in the sky… plead of the clouds to form your spirit in a face of your beautiful person: body, soul, mind and strength. But it is nothing compared to the real you... and I am sad.
Nevertheless, behold the girl sitting in front of me on msn of the computer with her beauty magnified on the camera of the skype. Behold your sweetness when I come in communion with you, dear, every night. This is the time the unrest heart settles, my suffering comes to an end; the wounds brought about by the thousand arrows, shatters – you the healer of my drought! My mind laid focus on you… and I remember why I Love you. My vision grows clear… and I do not have to depend on the clouds any longer. My despairing changes in your light,and thus transforms into a fresh hope. I am no longer afraid. My morning sun! I am so in love with you!
